White with blue and orange,
White with red and green,
Red with blue and gold,
Red with blue, Red with green,
Red with white, Red with black,
Blue with yellow, Blue with red,
Blue with white, Yellow with greenish-black,
Yellow with indgo,
Ultramarine, Cyan,
Turquoise, Ice-blue, Opal,
Neptune-blue, Nile-green, Sea-green,
Malachite-green, Veron-green,
Leaf-green, moss-green,
Lemon, Yellow, Gold,
Chrome, Orange, Salmon,
Scarlet, Red, Amaranth,
Purple, Voile, Amethyst,
Indigo.
Yuck, Yuck, Yuck.
The only interesting thing in the world must be the human face.
Here there are only cranes, lines.
All dead matter.
Look. Over there, isn't that nice?
Do you know something about it?
I'm a little peculiar. I love people,
Faces, the humane, the warm.
There's nothing more alive than man.
When Rolf met Elisabeth, she was 20 years old,
and attended the academy of photography and graphic arts,
the photography school in Hamburg. He studied medicine.
But when? - One notices.
Then it wouldn't be so nice afterwards. Right?
Rolf had polio as a child. He's living with his mother.
His father died very young.
The mother stayed alone, because of her son.
Rolf wants to become a doctor. This decision stood firm since his childhood.
Due to his numerous illnesses during his childhood, he became an idealist.
He wants to become a doctor, to help humanity and to fight calamity.
Elisabeth was interested in everything Rolf did.
She never left his side.
She accompanied Rolf to the lectures and dissection courses.
Mr. Hamperl, Mr. Hartwig,
Mr. Hegemann, Miss Kristmann...
Then this is already the twelfth rib,
the Nervus subcostalis. we can hook Subcostalis
upwards
and onto invenalis.
Just pull it upwards.
Now we take the renal bed,
the lower pole of the kidney, pull it out. And tweezers...
I've always thought, I'd be in shock,
when I saw something like this.
But now I even find, that it looks pretty.
Always to go further into detail, until you're fascinated, how that lives.
She didn't touch anything.
She talked a bit much about things, she had only seen.
The passion to capture another human, is understandable.
Tomorrow we get the Regio lumbalis, the loin area.
So this is the situation
in regards to the locomotor system.
Thus the type of incision is given:
From this top angle
at the iliac bone crest frontwise.
Projection! Episcope!
A navel loop, this is the height of the navel.
So this is the track, this will be the body...
Here, these are skeletons, of unborn.
This is about the third, or fourth month.
This is about the size, when it is born, this is how the development progresses.
Here you've got the first teeth.
Of a ten-year-old.
These are adults already. This is a man and this is a woman.
There, the pointy part... It's pointy in a man.
One week later Elisabeth is going on vacation
with Rolf on his light motor-cycle.
She's coming back pregnant.
Stop!
Step aside!
Elisabeth believes to be in a big romantic love story with Rolf.
Elisabeth thought about marriage before.
That's why she's thinking of it again.
You've got it very nice here.
I always like to create an atmosphere. That's important. Rolf knows that.
He likes to be alone.
Sometimes I don't know if he's at home.
You really have to bring him back to himself.
He is unbelievably sensitive. Even as a child...
He's working very serious. - You have to support that.
Especially because she respected Rolf's mother,
Elisabeth did not like this woman to be present on her wedding day,
that only returns once in life.
Who's this? - It's me.
Look.
Yes. Your name is Michael.
Rolf?
This apartment is just wonderful.
Elisabeth has spotted a small attic flat,
which she is arranging with Rolf and Michael.
Most important item in the flat is a big french bed.
Listen, I think we don't need a bedroom, we'll just use
the bed as a couch during the day.
Please laugh!
Bending of the Psychosomaticus.
He can laugh, but he does not get a dimple.
Ladies and gentlemen, 63 percent of all people do not get dimples when they laugh.
37 percent do.
You can see this lauging dimple on both sides very well here.
If this ideal of beauty would be reached, fellow colleague,
then one would be strong, the other a little weaker,
hence the famous asymmetry.
Elisabeth told Rolf: "If I were you, I would become an eye specialist.
There is nothing as sensitive as the eye."
Elisabeth said: "I hold love in high regard.
But I regard it differently than the others regard it.
We are always having a conversation, always these wonderful conversations."
To be able to survive! To make something that stays.
Look, I found this in the basement.
The tests with immunebiological substances for example.
Can you hear that?
Did I disturb you? - I hope I didn't disturb you.
No, you know, I've heard you from time to time before so I just came down.
I didn't know it was you, of course, I just wanted to see at last.
I hope I didn't disturb you, you see, I'm not allowed to practise anywhere,
so Ms. von Brockhusen said, I could practise here.
So these are your rehearsals, you're doing here? - Yes.
Hello, Brausi. Hello, Sausi. How are you? - Hello. You're looking snazzy.
Hello, how are you?
May I hang your coats? Come in.
Hello Uta! - Hello Rolf, how do you do?
Hello Elisabeth. May I introduce you? You already know him.
And I'm bringing two friends: Dagmar and Erdmann.
Please, come in here, you can take off your coats.
Elisabeth accustomes the old circle of friends to the new apartment.
Where's Elisabeth? - Elisabeth is coming. There are already guests inside.
I take my coat. - Yes. Go ahead, come in.
Good Evening. - Good Evening. - Hi.
How are you? - Oh, that's sweet. - Hello. How are you?
Uh! Well, how are you doing? - Good Evening.
How are you? - I'm fine, thanks.
Hello, Rolf, I've brought someone. This is Mr. von Vogesack.
Good Evening, Elisabeth, may I introduce: Marion Mundhoff.
Good Evening, Rolf. Marion Mundhoff. - Come in.
If you want to take off, back there, alright? - Very fancy.
I think, there are a couple of free hooks. - I'll do that, go ahead inside.
But he doesn't neglect his work.
To cope with the banalities of a woman.
When a man has lived without a woman or has lived without a sister,
when he later marries, he is surprised by a woman's personal matters.
They do that anyway. - Anyway?
Even if he had a sister? Because he does not want to see it with his own wife?
Of course not.
So how does a man adjust? If he loves her, does he ignore it?
Or does he grow to love these things? These shortcomings? - He loves them.
You're raising my hopes.
Look, lrina is all serious.
You have married? - Yes.
Congratulations!
Ordinarily? Really?
I don't know, Irina, I've asked this Rolf once.
But Rolf is this way and that's why I love him:
Rolf just loves me for what I am. He does not love me for my appearance.
I've always been without make-up. Rolf got to know me completely without make-up.
And when today Rolf says, I've changed him,
he would have been terribly superficial.
He says, he became introverted, that I have change him.
But without me having trained him.
And that's what stays.
That's why he loves me most. And this makes me terribly happy.
This is how I see you.
To be someone else for once. It would be like this:
I stay in the bathroom for long, I do a face mask.
Maybe with rose water and loam, that's supposed to give you soft skin.
So I'm doing a mask.
Irina said: "Our experiences make us smart. "
Elisabeth thought, experiences make us rich.
Especially in times, when she felt fine,
Elisabeth liked to talk about possible problems in discussions.
My own opinion:
It's comfort. I know, I belong to somebody.
I belong to Rolf. He is there for me, I'm there for him.
I have my home, I know, where I should be, know, who I can talk to,
who to confide in.
That's ... you belong to somebody,
and I think, every woman should marry.
You feel in your heart, in your soul, you feel...
a little free, you feel free, happy. You're simply happy.
It has nothing to do with the bodily.
Hair turns grey, you see each other, I think,
always, the way you met.
Happiness is only complete, when there's also some pain.
You'd like to have that from time to time.
I'm completely opposed, a woman living the way Irina does.
But basically these girls are very unhappy.
Since they search just because...
I say "search", because I have seen,
that a friend of mine, was a character like Irina.
She was searching constantly for a man, to hold on to,
whith whom she stays, whith whom she finds calm.
And everytime, she thought that she found, that man,
some mistake appeared on the man's side,
that disappointed her terribly and she broke away from the man instantly,
because of this big disappointment. And she immediatly searched for another,
to forget this disappointment.
And then of course something appeared and that's why I say,
these girls are terribly unhappy.
Since they're always searching. They're getting many, these men.
Always searching. They're getting many, afterwards.
and that's terribly repulsive of course, even for these girls.
They are unhappy. And they seek advice, too.
In the past, long ago,
with myself, in my face,
to accept my face, like it is. I have tried to change it,
for a long time.
"Two nights ago."
"Now."
"Not here."
"I don't know anything afterwards."
"Now."
I've got to do that first. Then I will know.
And then I'll be glad or I won't glad.
Here you get ahead or here you don't get ahead.
My mother.
Breathe in deep, please.
Manuela.
If I speak with the mouth, I do god's will.
When I see god, everywhere,
in stone and plant, in beast and flower.
When I see god, in father and mother...
There once was a poor child... - Elisabeth...
... that had no father and no mother,
was nobody here in this world.
Everything dead
and went forth and searched
day and night.
And for there was nobody on earth,
wanted to go skyward
and the moon looked at it so kindly.
And when it finally came to the moon,
it was a foul piece of wood.
And so it went to the sun
and when it came to the sun,
it was a withered sunflower.
And when it came to the stars,
they were all little golden midges.
Come on.
Again like just now.
Are you still alive?
So many things can be done wrong and there's only one life.
After two years of marriage, two children Rolf and Elisabeth felt,
that everything wasn't that easy.
Well, how do you like it? Michael, do you want to try?
Come here, hold this. Come.
Manuela! Manuela, don't run away!
Now Rolf gave up medicine for good.
After visiting his mother he explains to Elisabeth:
"I need distance from everything now." He is not happy like this.
When Elisabeth would have had difficulties,
many would have been willing to help her.
I think, everything a woman does,
not to get children, is unhealthy. - I'm just careful.
Besides I would have to calculate, when I wanted to be with Rolf.
I think, that's vulgar.
Besides Rolf says, that it's the same for a man.
Elisabeth cultivates her friendships.
... he saw innumerable little ice crystals glittering in the air.
Through this white night with it's silent spell, he went on
and paid heed, not to get caught by its sentimental beauty.
Indeed, he even assured disdainfully in front of an invisible audience...
Bernhard always says, I'm old-fashioned. I think so too.
... still it was there und he in it.
Well, this is beautiful. When did you write this? - A couple of months ago.
Rolf is spending more time at his mother's.
I know you.
Yes, for so long.
But say something. - What should I say?
What you're missing.
Don't drive away.
Who says, I want to go? - You are.
Not like this. - Still, still. You mean it.
I mean what I say.
Think about it again.
I stay.
Where do you want to go?
Rolf always told himself, that his studies
have nothing to do with his family.
Now, that he quit his studies,
he is distancing himself from his family.
He claims never to have gotten around pondering alone.
Elisabeth felt, that Rolf wanted to get away from her.
But rest assured, that all of us are always here for you, okay?
Even if you wouldn't come for a longer time, I mean...
I'll wait and the kids, too.
And don't think, anything stands between us.
I'm in love with you, okay?
She let him go, thinking, she will bring him back.
The socks. - The socks.
Do you know, where you want to go?
Everything was just too early, too fast.
And then came little Michael and then already Manuela.
And now we're getting another one.
And I understand, that your lifetime wishes,
your lifelong dreams,
your work dream, that...
it's a mess
and that you really don't know where you should be at the moment.
I just hope you understand...
Unexpectedly, the desparation due to Rolf's departure still came.
Say...
Rolf is gone.
Her longtime friend Bernhard Weiss,
a young editor, is helping her especially.
He visits regularly and introduces her to new and interesting friends.
Please listen up. I wanted to read Rolf's letter to you.
He wrote to me. "Dear Elisabeth."
"Michael is also suffering because his father broke away from his family,
because that's what it is, if you're honest.
Rolf, I believe in you.
Why don't you trust me? I'd like to know, what's the matter with you.
I'll give you time until the weekend. I absolutely have to know,
where we go from here. Please, please. Love, Elisabeth."
Rolf! - Elisabeth!
Rolf came home shortly before the birth of the third child.
He worked as a laborer at a shipyard in Rotterdam.
He had spend the money, that he had made.
Do you hear something?
That's Blandine.
Irina says, there were two children of the king.
If we imagine them still getting together, then what?
But then I've got these terrible doubts, I can't get rid of.
Basically I have nothing.
I'd like to learn something, something, that I can't even imagine yet.
Because in the role of a wife, I would fail completely. I would fall flat.
I want to learn something and I want to find someone to tell me what.
All children should know, where the little babies come from...
Look, Michael.
... and what love is. - How lovely, these flowers.
My children, anyways, should know, I think.
I think, the children, living in the countryside, they have it easier.
... and want to live. - The live with nature and nature enlightens.
... very small, down here.
That's why I want to, and I do, drive more often to the countryside with my children.
to introduce them to nature. This way it's much easier for them, too.
And when they have questions, then I tell them honestly how it works.
They really want to go out and live. - Why tell them fairy tales?
There's one, it will probably blossom in a couple of days.
I love the woods, the coldness.
Actually I'd always like to stay out here and see to everything.
I can really feel it, the way I prosper out here.
Tell me, am I getting too thick for you?
No, I like you this way.
I'm always kind of about to burst.
Always kind of on the edge.
Exercise and a healthy diet!
The air really is marvelous here.
Breathe again.
Marvelous, isn't it?
Your turn.
Man and woman, as one.
Yes, but not all the time!
Hey!
You will recognize them,
by the way, she is standing there and waiting for you.
You won't miss her.
I'd like to...
... my life...
Elisabeth's father helped both of them with regular allowances.
There was no discussion about Rolf's work problems.
Since the birth of Elisabeth's third child
only four months have passed. - I don't want a child right now.
Now she is panicking. - I'm over it.
She says, it would be too much. - Normally I can set my watch by it.
She couldn't take responsability.
The doctor won't or cannot help.
Rolf himself has to help.
In the afternoon she's in intense pain.
When she's regaining consciousness, Elisabeth believes, she's got to die.
Three months later, Elisabeth is pregnant again.
This time she does not fight it.
You may have the next child.
With pleasure.
Barbara.
I, however claim, that everything we love, is beautiful.
With friends it's not like it used to be.
The distances are too great.
The circle is no longer complete. - The pot was too small
and everything turned into mud.
Boy, we were hungry!
And then you said, when we went out buying buns:
"Once I am rich, you shall have it better."
Where you serious? - And then you said to me, I shall take my time.
I've tried. - No, you said that.
Two very good...
Yes, please excuse me.
What are you doing here? - Excuse me.
Where are you coming from? - I wanted to visit you.
Yes, that's a good idea, but I'm in a meeting.
Have you found something yet? - No, not yet.
Wait a second.
Success for example. Every person wants to have success.
That's normal. Especially for a man.
I've seen it many times. Men, when they were still studying,
were very likeable
but when they finally reached success,
they've changed all of a sudden.
They were no longer accessible to others. -... one day you're just standing in the door.
I've never loved the successful. - I'm happy, that we meet
and see each other. But have you ever thought about, where this will lead?
Do you want to stay here? You've got a husband and children at home,
still you're standing in the door. What do you want to do now?
After that Elisabeth returns to Rolf,
reconciles with him and has her fifth child.
You have only been working temporarily in the electronics industry,
during your time as a working student? - One needs something,
one loves. - You have no steady job at the moment?
Rolf wants to evaluate his dropping out of university.
He's working as a medical representative for a pharmaceutical company.
Rolf thought, he could achieve success once again this way.
Surely you will be able to utilize your medical basics,
that you have acquired at university.
Still you have to consider, that the task of a medical representative
out there is a job, that effectively involves very little
of the things you have learned,
but rather recquires the clincal problems,
that you would have encountered later in your studies.
You and most of all the objective-informative, promotional dialogue.
And that I will find an objective viewpoint towards it.
Hence it's a mixture of the, if you will, the promotional and the scientific.
Why did you drop out of university? - It became too difficult.
But as a young man one bears a responsability at a certain age.
It stops, the adventure, the private adventure.
Today though it became an adventure for seven people.
Once you have started studying, you should actually have the will,
to follow through. Maybe certain cliffs...
What courses did you flunk?
You've passed anatomy. - Yes. - That's what it says here in your documents.
Actually I have... - You've passed psychology too.
Physics is what caused you difficulties, I can fully understand that.
Physics, chemistry, was rather close.
And there remains: Zoology, biology.
Well, and what do you want to do now?
Yes, i would like to, well...
to work in the field of medicine and medicinal progress.
That figures. Surely, you want to utilize the things, you have learned.
I'm a family man, I have 5 children. - How old are you now?
I am 29 years old. - You were busy there.
Yes.
Here you have the model.
Yes, it's the hellebrigenin or the digitoxigenins
and here you have a corresponding sugar residue,
which we want to attach to this molecule,
to form a cardiac glycoside...
Maybe you could treat me with a few examples of your skills.
For example what is an anastomosis, Mr. Puschina?
That's the connections of vessels between each other.
Very good. You're probably pretty familiar with that from your studies.
What is stroke volume?
... as a person, who has only got a general
vaguely defined malaise.
These patients more often later see a doctor and say:
"Doctor, when I took the pills,
I got this flickering in my eyes."
Exactly. - What about the diastolic filling?
It's probably better than when the heart is beating fast?
The contractility is not improved. Well, what does contractility mean?
That was a moot point, ladies and gentlemen,
even the upper ten thousand are quarreling about that.
Hundred! Hundred! - The upper hundred!
Or hundred. The upper hundred, more people don't know about that.
Rolf only comes home very seldom these days.
He sees Elisabeth once a month.
But when he does it's always very nice.
Liquidly four tea spoons are given, two of those tea spoons in the evening,
in tablet form one to two pills three times a day,
depending on the severity of the case.
I'm interested in this medicament. Have you got a sample
or will you send me one?
Yes doctor, we can send you any amount anytime.
Yes, he collects stamps. He prefers Liechtenstein,
Austria, they have very beautiful stamps
and his collection has grown considerably. - That suits me.
Yes, you can bring by some stamps from Austria, later.
If you look at ours however, they're just no good.
Those aren't stamps.
Freshly removed just now.
They're droll, those. I'm always quick to turn.
Ilona!
Hello, Rolf. Allright, here I am.
Splendid, just splendid.
I'm on my period. - Maybe she shouldn't have met
him these days.
Don't be unjust, it's not her fault.
On one hand seeing hope crumbling into dust,
on the other hand not believing, that it is, how it is.
Have you ever had Chinese?
Look, like this.
Allright. Yes, yes I have. - Yes, exactly.
Why are you holding it in your left? - I'm left-handed.
Hello, are you asleep yet?
Hm, a little. - I'm coming soon. I'm still here.
Oh, you're still here. How late is it?
At night everything is more clear here. The work is good.
Well, we're living in Müssenkoppel in Poppenbüttel now.
I'm gonna explain to you, how you have to drive from your place, okay? Towards the airport.
Alright first left once again, there's a very strange church
and then Alsterdorferstraße again.
These pretty little houses, all little witch's cottages,
in between gardens and fields.
Pass under the subway bridge.
And then always straight ahead.
Yes, to the left it's getting more rural, you know, park landscapes and such.
So tell me again: "Müssenkoppel in Poppenbüttel."
Müssenkoppel in Koppenbüttel. - What did you say? Ah, you're lying.
Around kids Rolf can be spontaneously affectionate.
Mr. Puschina, I've ordered you here.
We wanted to talk to you.
My question is: Are you really happy here?
Yes, why do you ask?
Mr. Puschina, you're here now more than three month,
a time, we've experienced to be enough usually,
for new co-workers to become a member in our community,
for them to feel comfortable here. With you I've got the impression,
that you're a little distant
and after talking to Mr. Hirt, the district manager, he could,
sadly, I must say, confirm that.
On top of that two appeals of doctors came in lately.
I say appeals, it would be too grave, to grade them as complaints.
Aren't you balancing a little in some form?
Yeah, but certainly not on purpose.
I believe you, I acknowledge your effort and your enthusiasm.
We'd like to help you, Mr. Puschina.
You can only work ideally, when you are free in your occupation,
when you're comfortable. We'd like to make you an offer.
We're taking you off of your task in the field
and give you a suitable task in the office. I think, that you're
best helped in this vein with your family background.
Doctor, I thank you for this solution, but I'd like to
ask you for some time, to come to a decision.
Naturally. I realise, you're not able to decide now.
But think about it, maybe you can
further utilize your medicinal education.
But for field work, for that, I think, you're not qualified.
The announcement of the fifth child causes Rolf,
to improve his earning capacity.
He changes over to a cosmetics company. There he is successful at first,
because he knows to persuade his mainly female customers.
He is assigned a represantation area close to his mother's home.
One washes himself hastily.
Don't say, he washes badly, but say he washes hastily.
Good afternoon. - My friend and I are both Americans.
Outside stand two friendly- looking young men, mormons.
... in connection with the mormon church. Have you heard of it?
Yes, please come in.
May I offer you something, some coffee or tea?
Thank you, but that's not necessary.
Well, as my colleague explained, we are both american
of the so-called mormon church and we're more or less
visiting the neighbourhood this morning,
to tell the families about our church.
And if I may ask, where do you stand on religion?
I haven't really thought about it. Not yet anyway.
You know, we believe,
that god wants us to be happy in this life.
What I'm interested in: Earlier we talked about the prophets.
And when I really think about it, I want to...
it feels strange, that there really is a prophet these days.
May I ask something about that? Who is this prophet?
Of course we would like to tell you that. That is the main reason
we are in Germany.
Why we'd like to tell the people something about our church.
The prophet, who is running our church now, his name is David Mohammed Kay
and he is of course, I mean, he's living in America in the state of Utah,
that's in the western part, in the mountains.
And this man is of old age.
But he's running and leading the church.
How old is he? - He is 92 years old.
I see. - And he still runs and leads the church
as Joseph Smith in his day or as Christ himself
or as the apostles back then ran and lead the Church of Christ back then.
I will be there on sunday then. - So we thank you for your time.
Johanna.
We have a beautiful view from here. You will notice,
we have several classes in this row.
Over there we hold the sunday school classes.
And we learn about church in sunday school.
In this room we have the chapel. Here the members all come together
when we have sunday school or service.
May we go in? - Yes, sure. - Thank you.
Wonderful!
Very nice, very comfortable.
How many members are in your parish? - In this parish we have about 700.
That's cognisance. - "s".
Huh? - "Cognisances". There's always more than one.
All the philosophers are right. I mean the real philosophers.
I'm not a philosopher. I just think, you can recognize yourself.
In others. - Maybe.
It's so hard, to adapt to happiness.
Dear brothers and sisters, we are happy to welcome you here this morning.
We'd like to start our baptism off with singing.
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"We thank you, Lord, oh prophet."
The opening prayer is said by, Brother Adwater, David Adwater.
Would you please take the baptizands to the water
and perform the baptism?
The soaking wet robe on my body felt very pleasant
despite the cold.
You're my brother now.
Will Rolf be able to save himself with the help of his brain?
Watch it!
Judging by the circumstances very likely suicide, identity not yet determined.
Exhaustion fumes piped into the interior, on the passenger seat a bottle
and a tablet tube.
No clues were placed by us and also none were covered.
Death should have occured quite some time ago.
Let's have a look, what was going on with the man, where he was from.
It would be advisable, to place the body out here.
Take a close look into his pockets,
for a letter anywhere...
Take care of the children.
I could cry when I see Michael. - Don't worry about it.
It's also too hot in here. - Take something off.
I have to go. - Alright.
That's my silver bird.
I've been looking for that, since Rolf...
In a gallery Elisabeth meets the young American Brian Leak.
Are you still there? - Sorry?
Are you still there? - Where am I supposed to be?
It was so quiet on the line. I thought, you were gone.
No, I'm still there. - Are you home?
I went home, to call you for a bit in piece.
That's very nice.
Do you know that? - Yes.
Well, that's the way it was and so I slept.
Now I'm wondering, how you really get along.
Well it's not so easy for me. The evening's over,
but still a few things happened, that don't quite fit the concept.
Brian, don't worry about it.
I think, you worry, don't you?
Elisabeth!
The children are pleased, their mother is getting happy again.
But what really interests me in you and interests me all the time
and used to interest me
and interests me today,
that is practice.
Elisabeth emigrated with her five children and Brian Leak,
who was mormon und American, to the United States.
She wrote: "All your good wishes
until now have fulfilled hundredfold.
It's wonderful, to be allowed to experience
a new life and such great love again,
in a foreign country at that, in this lonely little house with a garden.
So many things here correspond to my being,
so generous, free
and if you're so inclined, wholly individual.
Maybe also because it makes me think about Rolf.
What is touched with loving hands, must be twice as beautiful."